Pother
I'm stimulated but frustrated
It's so hard when I think I'm not seeing far
To correlate it, I separate it
I thought I saw now I think I didn't see at all
My imperfections, not my selections
Can't you see there's a raging war inside of me?
A new position, a retransition
I know I could be right, I could be wrong
So tell me what it means to me
Am I safe here anymore?
Something's trying
It just won't let me be!
Elation with aggravation
I hope I make it through this situation
I'm exited , I can't fight it
It's so clear that I'm going nearsighted
Is this confusion my illusion
Or is it staring here in front of me?
A new position, a retransition
My excitement is mingled with confusion!
So tell me what it means to me
Am I safe here anymore?
Something's trying
It just won't let me be!
Copyright 1998 Damon Whitsell w6106@netzero.net
Daybreak
Fading stars surrender to a soft glow on the horizon
The hazy moon is slowly drawn to the place it will sleep in
The nocturnal world is about to become a morning fire dayglow
The creatures of the night hurry to find a safe place where they can go
A beautiful kind of light seems to fall from this freshly painted sky
All the flowers stand at attention to grasp some light and sigh
Many of the creature eagerly come out to honor the sun that shines
They roll around and play awhile but not enough they get behind
Instinctually they go about the things that are required for life
The whole of nature comes lovingly to enjoy this daybreak of life
The fog lifts the dew off the soggy terrain only to disipate and lose its mass
The wild flowers are relieved and awaken from the sleep the night had cast
Everything joyfully thanks this thing they love that gives them energy
Insightfully I know that this is not the force that gives light to me
Somehow I mysticly posses a way to change this light in subtle ways
I stand above the creatures who enjoy this light but can not alter its rays
Todays daybreak enlightens in a very peculiar and special way
I dream and invision this life to be more than the morning sunray
A sense of everything takes hold as the orange glow fades to blue sky
In this light I can see that something is so much greatly more than iI
With one small fleeting gaze I can see the totality of all reality
Something somewhere really is the source of this sunlit sky and me
I sense that it holds a very special feeling for me but I'm not sure why
Today I gleefully looked straight up into this most very unique sky
Never before had I seen so much of life or so wonderfully high
There was an image that filled the span of this marvelous sky
Momentarily I thought it appeared to be an image that looked like me
Then I was awed realizing that this was god, creator of the universe and me
Then suddenly a serene voice whispered from the sky and said to me
" I am your father and I have heard you speak of me and long for eternity
As today breaks I want to tell you and show you all that you mean to me
I live for you, I died for you, our pain is over, today is your daybreak to
Eternity"
Copyright1998 Damon Whitsell
This one came in a dark depression
Scars all over me
Lacerations on my soul
Soon to scar , got no control
Revisions in my thought control
Mangled mess I'm far from whole
Truth in my soul, I start to bleed
Take my sins away from me
I'm hostile towards insanity
Heal my wound, kill my beast
It's all good, mind telling me
Pursue yourself you'll be free
Insanity is reality
Before I die set me free
Look at me, I am depravity
Take away reality
Incarcerate my humanity
Now I'm scared, my soul it bleeds
There's scars all over me!
Copyright 1999 Damon Whitsell w6106@netzero.net
This one was written for and was placed in my doctors office for others
Can't you tell
Yes, I am the one
Who needs help
I used to be strong
But tragedy stole my true self
Some I love deserted me
They became loyal to someone else
Some I will never see again
If there is not life somewhere else
Yes, I am the one
Who needs help, it is true
I worked so hard to succeed, like many do
But tragedy came along and stole that to
Now all my pretty songs, they are not new
And my paintings just don't shine like they used to
No matter how hard I try
I just can't feel like I used too
Yes, I am the one
Who needs help, can't you tell
When tragedy stole myself
It left behind someone else
Sometimes I smile at you so you can't tell
Inside my mind is a living hell
Please hear me, here my silent yell
I hope you'll never know just how far I fell
But with you and me together,
With god, I can be myself again, can't you tell
Copyright 1999 Damon Whitsell w6106@netzero.net
This was written on a day of clarity
Today
Today, I can see that the sky is not black but neither is it blue over me and you but
Rather a thousand shades of gray which are difficult for us to always see through.
Today, I am very thankful for this sky of gray, that I have not the the sun to always
Shine on me.
For the sky is a reflection of myself and this life, good, bad and imperfect , looked at in
Any way.
They are a reminder of the way things are and the way things will one day be.
Today, I release myself from self because it makes no peace in any way. Knowing that
Myself, imperfect and frail in mind and body I have not the way. I pray for wisdom and
Strength to persevere in a fallen world gone astray where I have cried out " where is
God now? Where is he? He has turned away".
Today, I am convinced that god has not turned his back on us but rather the freedom he
Has given weighs its consequences upon us.pain, suffering and evil are not from him but
Rather the fruit of the tree and me. How much more then will I be happy grateful when he
Comes with arms wide open
for us to live with him for eternity!
Today, I realize that from the atrocities of this world and my afflictions I cannot escape
And that i
Must wait for the removal of the barrier between earth and heaven and know that I have
Been appointed to share the truth of the way to escape and to stand in gods place here
To love my fellows who suffer. Today I will love and wait!
Today, if you have not considered jesus and his free gift of eternal life,,maybe you
Should,, it's the best deal anyone will ever find!!!!!!+!!!!!!!!+!!!!!!!!
Copyright 1998 Damon Whitsell w6106@netzero.net
Jesus I love you so
Jesus, when I'm sad and blue
I know you will see me through
And when I'm broken on the floor
I receive you love then more
Jesus, I love you so
Jesus I know you know
My dear god you love me so
Jesus, you showed me so
How I long to be like you
But I fail right through and through
I don't deserve your love from you
You give me love because your you
Jesus, I love you so
Jesus, I know you know
My dear god you love me so
Jesus you showed me so
Because of all the pain you felt
On the cross nothing was left
You came to save myself from me
Your the one true god for me
Jesus, I love you so
Jesus, I know you know
My dear god you love me so
Jesus, you showed me so
When I cry I know you weep
Without your love I'm incomplete
I thank you for the price you paid
That I may live with you one day
Jesus, I love you so
Jesus, I know you know
My dear god you love me so
Jesus, you showed me so
Since i've known you ask of me
"tell others what true love should be"
I tell them what you've done for me
For me and all humanity
Jesus, I love you so
Jesus, I know you know
My dear god you love me so
Jesus, you showed me so
When your angels start to sing
Sweet songs of all your love they sing
Praise for all eternity
To heaven I know I will bring
Copyright 1997 Damon Whitsell w6106@netzero.net
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