It is my feeling that the world as it is now is much too psychically charged for the schizophrenic mind to deal with because their minds become too painfully open to the emotional chaos. In my experience, without medication, I do not eat or sleep for days and commit actions very dangerous to my physical wellbeing. This danger zone, where I feel to be closer to spiritual realms, feels like it can only be consummated through death and the experience of the inevitable Afterlife. I basically thrash my body and this is frightening for everyone close to me. With medicine, I am more able to function in society as it is and am able to deal with people without becoming agitated. This is a sacrifice because I cannot hear the voices that sometimes give me a greater, spiritual direction. However, when I feel insight, I am told I lack insight and am considered "gravely disabled" by social standards. It is a Catch 22 that I hope will become clearer through time.
Anon