Life has problems

I was diagnosed Bipolar about a week after I hit a cop and responded to Lithium. I remember not even wanting to leave my house for literaly a month due to panic attacks. Little by little I have taken baby steps in my recovery. first I worked with the doctors to find a combination of meds that minimizes the panic attacks, and keeps the mood swings to a minimum, now I am working on life problems. They seem different now. I mean when I wake up in the morning, and I do NOT want to wake up, after 10 years of saying "I must be depressed", or "I must be having drug interaction problem." I must simply say, "I am tired, and I have to get to work." Millions of Americans (And Canadians too) say this every day. I am special because of my disorder, but I am not the only person that faces life's issues. The fact that at times I have to work harder to over come some of them like the frustration of rush hour, co workers disapproving of me because I don't have enough "Pep", and so on. The fact that I work harder on the simple issues, I believe has made me as strong as I am today.

Just a few years ago I was hospitalized for a long stay. Tears come to my eyes just thinking of the despair I felt. I was positive that a "normal" life was not in the cards for me. the fact was that I was, and still am living a normal life, because everyone I talk to has their own issue. I know a man that is simply devastated due to a bad case of sunburn. I also know a lady that has lost an unborn child and a father in the same week. She is in pain, but she is carrying on a lot better that I would.

I started writing with the intent to give hope to anyone struggling with a problem that is dominating their life right now. I remember bad feelings, and to a degree I have allot of bad feelings yet to come, but within the decade I have been involved with MD, the progress has been great. I can't wait for the next decade, I am hopeful there will eventually be one final pill I can take to replace the 13 I take every day. Good luck in your journey, and God Bless you.

Vic

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