What is going on ?
Detached from reality. The 'world' has ceased to be a physical place that my body inhabits. Its all now in my head. I can close my eyes and nothing changes I, I'm still here, there, nowhere..
I have moments of apparent lucidity. So, I do exist, look at me - I'm interacting!! That seems to be the killer blow; the realisation swallows it all back up into my head. Ooops.
I sit in my chair at work, as I am now. My eyes unfocus and I don't really know where I am. I know I'm sat in my chair at work, but what does that mean? I can't seem to take notice of the world around me.
Anxietys' abound. A general, ever-present anxiety that seems to be snipping away at my soul (I'm not sure if I have one left). I cannot interact. I am alone. I hear words but cannot listen to them. I try and talk but my thoughts lock, I feel afriad and I sound a fool, incoherent.
I lie alone on my bed at night, it's not late but I can never think of anything to do. I slowly slip into my head completely. I dont control it and the thoughts whirl through my head. I don't know where the thoughts come from, I cannot control them. With a snap I am back out, lying on my bed again, I can't remember the thoughts I've just had, but I know that they made no sense. I've been away for hours.
Life's a blast.
What's going on?
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